Where Would I Be

If you were to leave,

Then where would I be...

I can't live without your love'n.

I can't live with all the pain .

When you walk out the door,

All it will do is rain.

And I never want you to leave me,

So listen to me now.

Cause if your not in my life,

Where would I be .

Without you now?

When your here with me,

I see things so clearly.

You wouldn't imagen.

With your strong arms,

Wrapped all around me.

I need you in

My life baby,

If you were to leave

Where would I be?

Please baby don't go.

Unbelieveable

I’ve
Been through hell
And defeat
Don’t know why.
I
Take
This from you
The attitude
I can’t stand it
I’m all alone
Can’t go on
With your hatred
But here I stand
Open heart
Sacrifices


Why can’t I just leave you
Why can’t I just leave you
When I know that you’re
Hurting me
Hurting me


Why can’t I just leave you
Why can’t I just leave you
When I know that you’re
Hurting me
Hurting me

Marvin's Room Remix

You walking down the hallway
You see your boo right in front of you
You stop and think to yourself
Who the hell he he talking to

But you see some other chick
That he talking with
Then he leans and kisses her
Girl I know that's got to hurt

You wondering why he said that he love you
Look at him now cause he's just been playing you

And ladies
It's so hard to move on but it's o.k
Cause he's losing anyway

Cause...
He just acting like a fool
He drooling over all these girls while he's with you
Then he come up to you like everything cool 
Girl I know you going through
I've been through it too

Girls I know
I've been down this road before
He say he love you but he really don't
I know
I know
I know 

I'm Sorry

I'm so sorry
About everything I did
Or done
The pain
The hurt
The things I said to you
That came back and bit me
As much as much as it bit you
The stupid stuff
I said to you
Sorry
For the trust
I didn't have
And the love
I thought we had
But hey
It's okay
Cause I was wrong
And you were right
I was stupid
And you were smart
I get it
I understand
Everything we went through
Good and Bad
Is my fault
And I do take the blame
All of it too
Because if I would of
Never met you
Or talked to you
All this stuff would of
Never happened
I'm Sorry...
Will you ever forgive me?

The Break Up

Missing You




I’m________________
Missing you____ (oh)
I’m ________________
Missing you___   ...(oh)
You're my lover
You’re my soldier
You protected me
Why you leave me
You’re my best friend
You were my man
Wish you were here with me so you can tell me that you love me

And I love you
I love you
I love you
I still love you I

I need you
I need you
I need you
I can’t live without you

I miss you
I miss you
With all my heart baby

So come back
Just come back
Come back to me

When you’re away I can feel all you’re spirits
Leaving out of me (yeah)
Baby please don’t leave

But I’m______________
Still
Missing you
Missing you
Ohh missing you




.............




Over You

You know that question that you ask

Keeps going through my mind

Can’t seem to pass the time

It’s time to draw the line

And you know I can’t complain

Cause when we were together

Our love felt like forever

But Drake said. I know. I can do better

I was committed to you

You know I was

I fell in love with you

And you know I did

Then I forgot about you

Never thought about you since

That day. back then

Or did you not think that far ahead

Cause I’m not sitting here crying

Over you

Or did you not think that far ahead

Cause I moved on to something better
Then you

One Of Those Days

Having one of those days...

Again.

I don’t know why,

But I am.

I don’t want to eat,

I don’t want to talk,

I don’t want to stand,

I don’t want to sit.

I just want to

Lay down.

Shut up.

And cry.

Just lay

And let the days go by.

Cause I feel unwanted,

Not needed

Like the world is against me.

Like I’m falling.

Falling into a pit of

Hate and hell.

Just falling into

A deep.

Dark.

Sleep.

…..

Unwanted you want.

Unwanted.

I’ll.

Be.

Rash

Bo just left the court house and he is so happy he doesn't have to go to prison and gets to go home in stead. Gramp's told him to keep his cool till his eighteenth birthday, so then they won't have to worry about him going to jail. Then later on the next day Bo went to the mall, and he was looking for new clothes and stuff until he saw Maddy. But when he saw Maddy he was not expecting Karlohs to be there with her. So Bo went over to them and tried to act cool because he didn't want to lose he temper and go to prison like all the men in his family. When he started talking to them he found out that Karlohs had set him up, because Karlohs is allergic to rosemary and that day that everyone got very sick he put on rosemary face cream which started the whole madness in school. Bo got so mad he lost his temper and punched Karlohs in the face. They started fighting in the mall but then Bo got shot with a tranquilizer, and know I think Bo is going to prison.

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The World As I See It

The World As I See It

The world as i see it

Its a joke

From

Music to

Haters to

Old folks

From writing a song

And making a hit

The world is tough

For me I guess

The world to me

Is like the media owns it

Making lies

And jokes

Still talking about people that died

Like

Michael and

Whitney

Please oh please

Just let them die

They're in a better place

Then we are now

Up

In the clouds

With the big man up stairs

He made the world

It’s in his hands

You never know

When its your time

To go

Run or

Hide

But when he comes back

Don’t be surprised

He said he forgive us

For our wrong doing

Cause he loves

And cares

For you

And only you

Unlike

Some people in this world

Who think hatred is the key

No love

Just hate

You should come holler at me

Cause I feel like I can help you

By telling you the things I went through

Been through

Or maybe still going through

We all have test in this world

We all go through

Man

Woman

Boy or

Girl

But if you believe that you can make it

My child

My child

Come and take it

Come and take a stand

With me

Cause I believe you can

And will

Make it to the glory land

Now

I told you what the world means to me

So please

Share with me

What it means to you

By: Asia Livingston

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Why Should I Care?

On the outside you see a out going person, but on the inside is a broken hearted, always living in the past, can't move on from the hurt and pain she's been through, little girl.

On the inside my heart is broken into a million pieces and it need surgery fast. I'm dying of pain in my heart because I feel like no one loves me anymore, no one cares me anymore...... do I even come to you thoughts? I guess its just God and I vs. the world, but that's fine with me.

You don't have to love me, because I never did love you. You don't have to care, because I didn't give two cents about you. I really don't care if I come to your thoughts at all anymore, because you never came across mine either. I never loved you and I never cared because you are self-fish, low-life, and self centered. I could really give two cents about you and your feelings, because I mean you never did for me. You give me a good reason to care about you....why should I? You answer that question for me.

My Writing

My three best post, that I think is on point, are Your Light, Relationship Problems, and Childhood Memory.  I believe that my best creativity came out of my poem/song Your Light because I think its funny how it came to me when I wrote it. The night before all the post where supposed to be published I was singing a song that was stuck in my head for a couple of days, and before I fell asleep it hit me. All the words just came to me, and I'm glad it did because the poem/song that I was going to do I thought it expressed to much of my feelings and I thought it was to long, so I really didn't want to do it.

I think the most growth in my writing is when I wrote Childhood Memory. I really thought people wouldn't really care about my life and how I met my dad but they really did. Probably because people thought my dad was going to rape me which is funny to me, because my dad is too crazy and silly to do that to me.

When I wrote Relationship Problems I did it for some people because their relationship was kind of in a crisis. I feel like I helped someone with something in their relationship. I love to help people with their problems, if any of my friends have anything to say they always come to me and tell me because they trust me. To have someone to trust me makes me feel special because I can help someone with something.

Your Light

You wanna be popular
Sooooo Freaking bad
Have all the friend that you never had
You wanna be tha star of
Tha football team
Basketball
Cheerleading
Drama Queen
But if you open up your eyes
You'll see your life is just fine(yeah)
Don't change your yourself
Cause your unique
In your own way
Just let them haters hate
When you shine your light one day
Oh oh oh oh
When you shine your light one day
Oh oh oh oh

The Pain You Caused

The Pain You Caused

By: Asia L. Livingston

Yesterday was the past,

Today is the future

Why cant you just drop the past

Relationships just won’t last

Don’t know why I give my trust.

Give my love.

Give everything.

Why do I keep trying to,

Work everything out with you

You always acting like a fool

I’m tired of trying to tell the truth

Don’t know why I keep up with you

Why do I,

Keep making the same mistakes as before,

Knowing that I can’t trust you no more

I’m getting sick and tired of your lies

Closing my eye’s before I start to cry

You are the one to cause all this pain

My heart is suffering, you’re the one to blame

Wanting to leave, but can’t walk out the door

I can’t go on like this anymore. . .

This song/ poem is referring to the story i wrote about how i met my dad, because if you read very closely in the beginning i said, “My life started was like a blessing from God, but then turned into a living nightmare,” well this is the living nightmare of my  life.

Childhood Memory

The way I see my life is....it all started off a blessing from God but then turned into a living nightmare. In the year 2006 a month before my birthday my grandfather died. When he left this world, even though i was only 9, I felt so alone and depress like i had nothing to live for. My grandpa was the only person that treated me different from everybody else, for once in my i felt special like some one actually cared for me.

It was the year 2009, three years after my grandpa past, and it was a couple days before my 12 birthday. My mom woke me up one morning and told me that we were going to Concord, like i knew were that was. So we where in Concord and we pulled at some apartments that everybody know called "The Bottom." Then my mom told me to get out the car and knock on apartment door number seven. Then she said that if a man answer the door ask if Clayton Livingston lives there and if he say this is him that's your farther. In my mind I was like my dad......my dad just went to jail a year ago how can this stranger be my daddy?

I got out the car and went up to the door. I kind of stood there for a minute because I was nervous out of my mind. I took a deep breath and knocked on the door hoping no one will answer, but all of a sudden I heard someone ask who it was and the door unlock. Scared for my life I say really shy and soft,"its Asia", and then the door opened. When the door opened i saw a buff not as tall mean looking man standing there, so i did what my mom told me to do and ask him if he was Clayton. The strange man answered and said yes.

I looked back at my mom and she pulled up and said hi, you know being polite, but then she looks at me and said, "Ill come pick u up in a little I'm just gonna run somewhere real quick o.k?," In my head i was thinking, "Mom come back why are you leaving me with this strange man! I thought you loved me? Remember stranger danger!", but i looked at her and said o.k. So I just followed the man,or my dad i should say, to where ever he was taking me. We went past a couple of rooms in the house and he was telling me who stayed in them. As he was telling me i found out that i had another big brother named Coby two little brothers named Avontia and Savon another big brother named Montray and i have two big sisters named Cynethia and Tequia.

We went back into the last room of the house witch happens to be his room and he went in it. I didn't know if i should go in or go back in the living room, so being me not knowing what to do I just stood at the door. But then he ask me why I was standing at the door and why i didn't come in the room and sit down. I came in the room being very cautious and sat on the edge of the bed. "Closer," my dad said, so i sat on the bed still being very close to the edge until i felt his hands go around me and pull me closer 2 him.

My dad started to ask questions about me and my life and I had gotten mad because he should of been in my life and he would have known this stuff, but I didn't want to be mean. In my head I was mad and i said, " I don't even know this man and he want me to call him daddy....no that's not about to happen!" But then I was starting to get sleepy and tired of answering questions and he was probably tired of asking them because he looked sleepy too. So we were looking at Iron Man on boot leg then we both drifted off to sleep together. And that's was the best day for me because i met my real father, even though my mom kept it a secret from me its nice to know where i got my last name from and know that I can add on to my family.

      ~Asia L. Livingston