Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Childhood Memory

The way I see my life is....it all started off a blessing from God but then turned into a living nightmare. In the year 2006 a month before my birthday my grandfather died. When he left this world, even though i was only 9, I felt so alone and depress like i had nothing to live for. My grandpa was the only person that treated me different from everybody else, for once in my i felt special like some one actually cared for me.

It was the year 2009, three years after my grandpa past, and it was a couple days before my 12 birthday. My mom woke me up one morning and told me that we were going to Concord, like i knew were that was. So we where in Concord and we pulled at some apartments that everybody know called "The Bottom." Then my mom told me to get out the car and knock on apartment door number seven. Then she said that if a man answer the door ask if Clayton Livingston lives there and if he say this is him that's your farther. In my mind I was like my dad......my dad just went to jail a year ago how can this stranger be my daddy?

I got out the car and went up to the door. I kind of stood there for a minute because I was nervous out of my mind. I took a deep breath and knocked on the door hoping no one will answer, but all of a sudden I heard someone ask who it was and the door unlock. Scared for my life I say really shy and soft,"its Asia", and then the door opened. When the door opened i saw a buff not as tall mean looking man standing there, so i did what my mom told me to do and ask him if he was Clayton. The strange man answered and said yes.

I looked back at my mom and she pulled up and said hi, you know being polite, but then she looks at me and said, "Ill come pick u up in a little I'm just gonna run somewhere real quick o.k?," In my head i was thinking, "Mom come back why are you leaving me with this strange man! I thought you loved me? Remember stranger danger!", but i looked at her and said o.k. So I just followed the man,or my dad i should say, to where ever he was taking me. We went past a couple of rooms in the house and he was telling me who stayed in them. As he was telling me i found out that i had another big brother named Coby two little brothers named Avontia and Savon another big brother named Montray and i have two big sisters named Cynethia and Tequia.

We went back into the last room of the house witch happens to be his room and he went in it. I didn't know if i should go in or go back in the living room, so being me not knowing what to do I just stood at the door. But then he ask me why I was standing at the door and why i didn't come in the room and sit down. I came in the room being very cautious and sat on the edge of the bed. "Closer," my dad said, so i sat on the bed still being very close to the edge until i felt his hands go around me and pull me closer 2 him.

My dad started to ask questions about me and my life and I had gotten mad because he should of been in my life and he would have known this stuff, but I didn't want to be mean. In my head I was mad and i said, " I don't even know this man and he want me to call him daddy....no that's not about to happen!" But then I was starting to get sleepy and tired of answering questions and he was probably tired of asking them because he looked sleepy too. So we were looking at Iron Man on boot leg then we both drifted off to sleep together. And that's was the best day for me because i met my real father, even though my mom kept it a secret from me its nice to know where i got my last name from and know that I can add on to my family.

      ~Asia L. Livingston