The Pain You Caused

The Pain You Caused

By: Asia L. Livingston

Yesterday was the past,

Today is the future

Why cant you just drop the past

Relationships just won’t last

Don’t know why I give my trust.

Give my love.

Give everything.

Why do I keep trying to,

Work everything out with you

You always acting like a fool

I’m tired of trying to tell the truth

Don’t know why I keep up with you

Why do I,

Keep making the same mistakes as before,

Knowing that I can’t trust you no more

I’m getting sick and tired of your lies

Closing my eye’s before I start to cry

You are the one to cause all this pain

My heart is suffering, you’re the one to blame

Wanting to leave, but can’t walk out the door

I can’t go on like this anymore. . .

This song/ poem is referring to the story i wrote about how i met my dad, because if you read very closely in the beginning i said, “My life started was like a blessing from God, but then turned into a living nightmare,” well this is the living nightmare of my  life.

Childhood Memory

The way I see my life is....it all started off a blessing from God but then turned into a living nightmare. In the year 2006 a month before my birthday my grandfather died. When he left this world, even though i was only 9, I felt so alone and depress like i had nothing to live for. My grandpa was the only person that treated me different from everybody else, for once in my i felt special like some one actually cared for me.

It was the year 2009, three years after my grandpa past, and it was a couple days before my 12 birthday. My mom woke me up one morning and told me that we were going to Concord, like i knew were that was. So we where in Concord and we pulled at some apartments that everybody know called "The Bottom." Then my mom told me to get out the car and knock on apartment door number seven. Then she said that if a man answer the door ask if Clayton Livingston lives there and if he say this is him that's your farther. In my mind I was like my dad......my dad just went to jail a year ago how can this stranger be my daddy?

I got out the car and went up to the door. I kind of stood there for a minute because I was nervous out of my mind. I took a deep breath and knocked on the door hoping no one will answer, but all of a sudden I heard someone ask who it was and the door unlock. Scared for my life I say really shy and soft,"its Asia", and then the door opened. When the door opened i saw a buff not as tall mean looking man standing there, so i did what my mom told me to do and ask him if he was Clayton. The strange man answered and said yes.

I looked back at my mom and she pulled up and said hi, you know being polite, but then she looks at me and said, "Ill come pick u up in a little I'm just gonna run somewhere real quick o.k?," In my head i was thinking, "Mom come back why are you leaving me with this strange man! I thought you loved me? Remember stranger danger!", but i looked at her and said o.k. So I just followed the man,or my dad i should say, to where ever he was taking me. We went past a couple of rooms in the house and he was telling me who stayed in them. As he was telling me i found out that i had another big brother named Coby two little brothers named Avontia and Savon another big brother named Montray and i have two big sisters named Cynethia and Tequia.

We went back into the last room of the house witch happens to be his room and he went in it. I didn't know if i should go in or go back in the living room, so being me not knowing what to do I just stood at the door. But then he ask me why I was standing at the door and why i didn't come in the room and sit down. I came in the room being very cautious and sat on the edge of the bed. "Closer," my dad said, so i sat on the bed still being very close to the edge until i felt his hands go around me and pull me closer 2 him.

My dad started to ask questions about me and my life and I had gotten mad because he should of been in my life and he would have known this stuff, but I didn't want to be mean. In my head I was mad and i said, " I don't even know this man and he want me to call him daddy....no that's not about to happen!" But then I was starting to get sleepy and tired of answering questions and he was probably tired of asking them because he looked sleepy too. So we were looking at Iron Man on boot leg then we both drifted off to sleep together. And that's was the best day for me because i met my real father, even though my mom kept it a secret from me its nice to know where i got my last name from and know that I can add on to my family.

      ~Asia L. Livingston

The Tall Tale Heart

Relationship Problems?

      Do you feel like your relationship is going down hill? Are you caught in a love triangle with your two friends? Do you want to have a relationship with someone but your thinking about someone else? Well I have some helpful tips just for your relationship…Hunger Game style.

        We’re going to be talking about healthy and unhealthy relationships. If you need help with your relationship then read the following tips.

Relationship Tip #1: Getting What You Want.

        I a relationship you can’t always get what you want 100% of the time. This is not Burger King you can’t always have it your way. If you think your going to get what you want then you are setting up for an unhappy relationship. For example Katniss wanted to go to the feast, but Peeta told her no because he didn’t want her to get killed.

        What Katniss did is she put sleeping syrup in his food and tricked him. When she saw that Peeta was fully asleep she went to the feast. Now what Katniss did was very unhealthy for her relationship. But what she did was out of love which brings me to my next tip.

 Relationship Tip #2: Doing Things Out Of Love.

        When you do things out of love that means its coming from the heart. It means going out of the way, doing the extrem for your relationship because you love your partner. Going back to the situation with Katniss and Peeta. Katniss gave him the sleeping syrp becaus Peeta had blood posing going up his leg from the opening cut on his leg by Cato. If Katniss didn't go to the feast Peeta would die. What Katniss is she went through the extrem to get the shot for Peeta so he would not die. Now thats what you call love.

Relationship Tip #3: Conflict With You And Your Partner.

      Coming to your patner with an nasty attitude saying mean things to them or telling them to do what you say bacause u had a bad day. No that is not col at all, thats how some good relationships end because you of your partner has a bad attitude. take the time to sit down and talk about your problems or your day, and tell them why it was so bad thats how you save your relationship. Peeta and Katniss butt heads a lot and that is unhealthy for a relationship becaus you or your partner should be heard.
      Dont attack your partner because bad arguments lead into throwing things and braekinf lamps or vases that is really unhealthy. Attacking your partner is the worst thing that you can possibly do. And when your in the argument don't bring your partners past into it hen you really have some drama coming your way. Katniss attacks Peeta all the time but thats because he doesn't get a chance to explain his side of the story. Make sure you or your partner is heard before you start a huge fight with them.

     These helpful tips will hopfully help your relationship along the way. And if you have not found love yet well theirs someone out there waiting for the right person to spend the rest of their life with and that just might be you.

(Suzanne, Fremont. "Healthy Relationships." CMHC UT Counseling and Mental Health. 2011. Web. 08 Dec. 2011. http://cmhc.utexas.edu/healthyrelationships.html. )
(Saisan, Joanna, Melinda Smith, and Jeanne Segal. "Relationship Help: Tips for Building Romantic Relationships That Last." Helpguide.org: Expert, Ad-free Articles Help Empower You with Knowledge, Support & Hope. Nov. 2011. Web. 08 Dec. 2011. http://helpguide.org/mental/improve_relationships.htm.)
(Woodford, Joyce. "Healthy Relationships." Kansas State University. 3 Feb. 2011. Web. 07 Dec. 2011. http://www.k-state.edu/counseling/topics/relationships/relatn.html. )

You Dare Ask Who Am I? – Katniss Everdeen

You dare ask who I am?

 I am the one who would take chances with Gale

And go in the woods and hunt

You dare ask who I am?

I am the one who puts food on the table

Because my mother is to hurt to do it herself

You dare ask who I am?

I am the one whose father had a beautiful voice when he sings

But passed in a mine explosion

You dare ask who I am?

I am the one who save her sister

From a fight I know she wouldn’t be able to win

You dare ask who I am?

I am the one who caught the judge’s eye

Shooting the arrow right at their table when they paid no attention to me

You dare ask who I am?

I am the one who scored an 11 in the training course

You dare ask who I am?

I am the one who exploded the carrier tributes food

To see how long they would last

You dare ask who I am?

I am the one who made an alliance with Rue

You dare ask who I am?

I am the one who watched Rue die with my own eyes

You dare ask who I am?

I am the one who almost lost Peeta to blood poising

You dare ask who I am?

I am the one who was almost killed by Clove,

Until Thresh came and saved me

You dare ask who I am?

I am the one who found out that the barriers were poisoned

When Peeta and I saw Foxface dead

You dare ask who I am?

I am the one who killed Cato with one arrow

You dare ask who I am?

I am the one whose heart is split in two

Not knowing who to give it to

You dare ask who I am?

I am the one who WON the Hunger Games

You still dare to ask who I am?

I am Katniss Everdeen

The Girl On Fire

-By: Asia Livingston

The Hunger Games



 

Image: 'Memoirs of A Flower Mémoires d'une Fleur'
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     Why did the boy from district 1 have to kill Rue, the only thing that was close to Katniss, the only thing that reminded Katniss of home, the only thing that reminded Katniss of her little sister Prim. Good people weren't meant to die.

When Does Beauty Go To Far

      I Believe that beauty goes to far when people start hurting themselves to do what other people want. For example if a girl has a boy friend and her boy friend wants her to get plastic surgery on something, the girl said yes but when he walks away she really doesn't want to do it. It goes to far when parents put there little children in pageant's. Like that show on TLC's Toddler's and Tiaras that brakes my heart when i see the little kids crying and telling their moms that they don't want to do it, i mean really all that make-up and jewelry  on those little girls is not cool. One day the world will see that it is not about what's on the outside, because someone could be the most prettiest person in the world but have a cold heart and hate your guts. Everyone on the inside and out should be beautiful just the way they are. You don't need to have on make-up or get plastic surgery or look like a celebrity to be beautiful just believe in yourself and you will be just fine, because you can do bad all by yourself.